The Fairytale Of Shattered Tears

Earth Hour. Stupid.

2009-03-29T01:13:00.003+08:00

This post is bound to upset a lot of people, so if you are somehow supportive of Earth Hour, please do me a favour and DON'T READ THIS! IF YOU STILL INTEND TO CONTINUE READING, AND GET OFFENDED, I DON'T GIVE A DAMN WHATSOEVER!

Anyways, to start off my post on a positive note:

To the people who "celebrate" Earth Hour, you people are morons!

Who the hell "celebrates" Earth Hour anyways??? What is there to celebrate? I can understand if it's something like a New Year or Merdeka countdown or something. But what the hell is an "Earth Hour"? It's an hour where you switch off the lights, and end up stumbling around in the dark. And the cause? TO CREATE AWARENESS ON GLOBAL WARMING, AND TO "VOTE" FOR EARTH AGAINST GLOBAL WARMING!

OMFG! This is gonna be a long post, and I am ready for a fucking rant!

Since we all gotta turn off the lights, what is the other alternative for a light source during this one hour? That's right! Candles!

(POINT 1) Now, if I remember correctly, you have to burn the wicks on those candles in order to produce light. If you have any basic knowledge on science, you would know that burning produces Carbon Dioxide (CO2), and a shitload of other fumes and gases, depending on the substance burned. (Click here for proof)

Which brings me to another point...

(POINT 2) Carbon Dioxide is one of the main greenhouse gases. Greenhouse gases give rise to the Greenhouse Effect. And the Greenhouse Effect is synonymous to, oh gee... I dunno... GLOBAL WARMING, MAYBE??? (Click here for proof)

Holy shit! I just effectively destroyed your motive or even being part of the Earth Hour in the first place! This is when some of you will try and make a counter-statement by saying "But Leon! It's only a candle! How much greenhouse gases can it emit to the air?". My answer to you? Pretty much, I can say. Assuming that we use 1 candle per house, that alone could not lead to much pollution. Problem is, people who are "celebrating" Earth Hour are lighting 2 - 3 candles per person on average! (This is just a rough estimation, based on what i observed in a few blogs). And let's not forget the pollution contributed by the people who "celebrate" by holding barbecues!

Other forms of greenhouse gas emission that people do not take into account are the vehicles still running during the hour, the power generators that are kept on to keep multi-million dollar companies from going bankrupt, the power supplied to the street lamps and traffic lights, the power supplied to hospitals to make sure the patients live, as well as the power supplied to airports to ensure their planes do not crash and burn, and not to mention, every breath you take! All these factors contributing to the release of greenhouse gases to the atmosphere, directly and indirectly! And these are the factors that I could think of! What about the other factors that I have missed out?

So, since the power generators aren't shut down anyways, because one hour without lights would mean a great loss in profits for some companies, we can safely assume that the total greenhouse gas emission remains the same, whether you turn off your lights or not. Now, by lighting those candles and barbecues, you are directly responsible for releasing even more carbon dioxide into the air, compared to that where the lights are switched on normally. You have contributed to GLOBAL WARMING, when your original goal for participating in the Earth Hour is the stop global warming! How do you live with yourself????????

Owh, and speaking about celebrating, some shopping centres held performances after the Earth Hour to commemorate the 1 hour which thay so valiantly passed. Performances on brightly lit stages... increasing the volume of greenhouse gases emitted to the atmosphere! Affectively destroying their mission in the first place! Morons!

Of all the things that can be done during the Earth Hour, the stupidest thing that people could possibly do is to "celebrate" it with a bunch of friends. All these pompous morons, bragging about their good cause in saving Mother Nature! But somehow, deep down inside, they know they don't give a shit about Mother Nature, or the Earth Hour, for that matter! They're just using this as another reason to hang out with their friends in a gathering with a romantic ambience of darkness and candles! Hypocrites! So, unless they are having an orgy, I can't find anything productive for a bunch of groupies to hang around for an hour doing NOTHING!

I can't wait to see tomorrow's paper! I'm trying to guess how many break-ins and muggings that must have occured during the absence of light for an hour! Not to mention the number of people that will be injured in the process! My personal opinion? Programmes such as the Earth Hour programme are only suitable to be conducted in countries that are facing a shortage of Mat Rempits.

"But Leon! Not all Mat Rempits rob people!"

WELL, NOT ALL MAT REMPITS DON'T ROB PEOPLE EITHER! When was the last time a Mat Rempit did anything for you? If I were to head the Earth Hour project, I would have changed it into something like this:

Mow-Down-A-Mat-Rempit Hour! Do your part for the community by running down as many Mat Rempits as you can!

Can't you see the advantages of this programme? One Mat Rempit mowed down means One Mat Rempit less on the roads causing traffic accidents or terrorizing our community! As an added bonus, the Mat Rempit's putrifying carcass can be used to make fertilizer! Fuck the Mat Rempits! Save the Trees! To top it all off, metal is expensive, so we can recycle their wrecked motorcycle to make way for resources, earning ourselves a small income in the process! This world wll be Mat Rempit-free in no time!

But unfortunately, we all have to stick to the usual procedure of Mat Rempits either killing someone for their belongings, or getting themselves killed in a freak motorcycle stunt... Guess we don't have much of a choice but to stick with the Earth Hour for now.

At this point, many of you are shouting curses at me, saying:

"Leon, you bloody hypocrite! You talk about how shitty the Earth Hour is, but what about you? What have you done for Mother Nature?!"

Absolutely nothing! But at least I don't go around pretending like I give a shit about Earth! An hour without lights is no problem, and frankly speaking, I spent an hour without lights as well. But it really irritates me to see so many idiots singing in self-praise all over Facebook on their "achievements" of turning off their lights for an hour in an attempt to stop Global Warming. Go to hell! An hour does nothing to stop global warming! Read this post again if you are not convinced.

What irritates me even further is the Earth Hour is actually some conspiracy shit! Why the hell do we need people to "VOTE" for Earth over Global Warming, when everybody knows pretty well that global warming is bad. Why even bother going through with the Earth Hour in the first place??? Why not just implement the measures required to curb global warming??????

I'll tell you why!

Because life has been too convenient! Too fucking convenient for everyone! All the luxuries and conviniences, at the expense of our environment. We humans are too selfish to give up these luxuries! I would love to see how all you pretentious cocksuckers would react when the objective of the Earth Hour pulls through, and measures are taken to counter global warming. Measures that may require you to give up part or all of your luxuries!

This is only and Earth Hour, so an hour might not seem like much of a sacrifice...

But what if there was an Earth Day? Or an Earth Week? Or an Earth Month?

Now my question to you is will you be able to accept that for the good of our environment?

Imagine if new rules are passed out, such as:
~ 10 hours of electricity a day per building
~ Limited to only 1 car per family
~ You are only limited to only 50 litres of fuel per month
~ Minimal or no use of air-conditioning systems

These rules may seem a little extreme, but at the rate we're polluting the environment, one day it'll boil down to this.

Will you be able to live with that for the greater good of the planet?

I know all of you will answer 'yes' to that question for the sake of winning the argument and making me look like an idiot. But you know you can't lie to yourselves! You cocksuckers have taken these conveniences for granted! You don't want your current luxurios life to be taken away! You enjoy every moment of it!

So since you're enjoying it so much, STOP BEING A PRETENTIOUS FAGGOT! Your participation in Earth Hour is nothing worth bragging about! You turned off the lights for an hour? Big stroking deal! I turn off my lights every night for at least 5 hours, and you don't see me making a scene out of it! Go to hell already, dammit!

Trust me, I can rant on and on and on, but I need to catch some sleep now... So, on a final note, The idea of the Earth Hour is, no doubt, an effort to help the environment. But it is nothing worth bragging about or "celebrating"! It really bugs me that people are actually taking credit for themselves just because they turned off the lights for an hour... Maybe it would have been better if that one hour was used to create awareness on how pretentious people can be, and act as if they aren't...

And thus, I end the 274th chapter of The Fairytale Of Shattered Tears!

Au revoir!

Congratulations!

2009-03-04T14:20:00.002+08:00

Congratulations to love birds #3!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

And yes, I purposely altered the picture for their privacy purposes =)

And thus, I end the 273rd chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir! =)

Can't wait for Saturday

2009-03-04T14:11:00.002+08:00

Been a while since I last updated...

Been kinda busy lately...

My China trip update would have to wait!

I have this saturday to look forward to!

7th March!

My birthday!

But that's not all!

It's my darling Sha Ting's birthday as well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

How often have you heard two people in love with one another that share the same birthday?

Not very often, I guess XD

Have a little something planned for that day!

It's times like these I ask myself: How did I get so lucky?

All along, I've been such an emo dude...

Always thinking that I don't deserve anyone...

That I am just trash...

That nothing in this life is ever good enough for me...

I was down in the dumps...

Giving up everything....

Then suddenly, she comes into my life...

And I see a new light!

These 4 months spent with her are the bet I've had so far!

Thank you, darling!

I love you so much!

*hugs*

And thus, I end the 272nd hapter of The Fairytale Of Shattered Tears here...

Au revoir!

People are fucking dumb!

2009-02-06T01:28:00.003+08:00

As much as I would like to blog about my trip to China, I wanna make a statement first...

People are fucking dumb!

If you idiots have any issues with me, at least let me know who you are..

Refer to my cbox, and you'll know what I mean...

This is MY blog, and apparently, some fuckers just won't let me mind MY own business!

So please do me a favour, and LEAVE ME ALONE, please =)

I have enough to deal with already, then to have you idiots shovel more shit in my face!

And thus, I end the 271st chapter of The Fairytale Of Shattered Tears!

Au revoir =)

I appreciate the concern, but...

2009-01-08T22:13:00.002+08:00

If you fuckers wanna leave any messages in my tag box to try and teach me a "lesson",

AT LEAST HAVE THE GUTS TO STATE WHO YOU IDIOTS ARE!

Now do me a favour and leave me alone!

And thus, I end the 270th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

Au revoir!

Fuck 2008! Hope 2009 will be better...

2009-01-02T10:36:00.004+08:00

You know what? 2008 was a FUCKED UP YEAR!

All year long, I have been barraged by misfortune and nearly got myself killed a few times...

The best thing that happened all year long was me meeting my darling Sha Ting, whom I love all so dearly!

Here's a recap of the unfortunate events that took place in 2008...

~ My grandmother passed away...

~ Got into trouble with college over blogging incident... I don't wanna talk about this one...

~ Got hit by a car while walking... TWICE! Had injuries, but my family didn't give a shit to even notice.

~ 1st car crash; I could have died, but surived.

~ 2nd car crash; not my fault, I was at traffic light when an old uncle slammed into the back of my car. Pure bad luck...

~ 3rd car crash; Parked outside darling's house. Not my fault. Idiot drunk driver slammed into my car, and tried to flee. Bastard.

~ Started smoking, then stopped, then started, then stopped again.

~ Had a painful episode with a stupid girl who fucked around with my feelings. Luckily I met my darling, who saved me from myself.

~ Realized that the only family and relative I have left that I can trust is myself. Yes, I can't trust any of my family members and relatives anymore! And if any of them happen to be reading this now:

GO AWAY!

~ Disbanded team L. Farewell, suckers!

~ Nearly fell from the 4th story of college...

Well, that's it for a shitty 2008...

So here's my New Year's Resolution for 2009:

1) Don't get affected by my family, especially my mom, who always tries to put me down.

2) Love my darling Sha Ting even more!

3) Study hard and score well for my finals.

4) Be less emo.

That's it for now, I guess... I didn't sleep last night, so I can't think that much now...

So, I guess I'll end the 269th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

Au revoir!

And 2008 still sucked!

Happy fucking new year!

2009-01-01T17:06:00.003+08:00

Happy fucking new year!

I can say that my new year started off like shit!

No thanks to that dictator whose controlling my life!

Why must she step in and spoil my plans everytime???

I hate this!

Fuck it all!

Now I can't join my darling in Genting tomorrow as well!

I hate my f _ _ _ _ y!

Sigh!

And thus, I end the 268th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Fuck OFF!

Stupid...

2008-12-28T23:43:00.002+08:00

I became a complete idiot, and said things I shouldn't have said...

Now darling is angry with me...

This is why sometimes I hate myself so much...

I hope I die a slow painful death right now...

How could I have been such a moron?...

I hate myself so much...

And thus, I end the 267th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Sigh...

2nd month!

2008-12-23T23:28:00.002+08:00

It has been a fascinating 2 months so far.

I've never felt this alive in a long, long time.

Been spending our time meaningfully together.

In a blink of an eye, 2 months have passed.

And is a sign for many more months,

Many more years,

Forever,

To come XD

Darling Sha Ting, I love you!

Happy 2 months together =)

<3 heart =")">

Sad...

2008-12-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

Sigh... I'm feeling sad right now...

And I can't tell anybody about it...

Why do I always have to think so much?

Aih...

I really hate myself a lot at times...

The 265th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears ends here.

Au revoir...

I hate twilight. Still.

2008-12-06T14:37:00.000+08:00

Enjoy!

And thus, I end the 264th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir!

Twilight? NO!

2008-12-05T13:51:00.000+08:00

All I have ever been hearing the past few days are people whining about how good Twilight is...

About how hot the main actor is...

And how hot the main actress is...

And they start talking about it over and over again...

Like they were wishing they could have either character in real life...

Well you know what?

FUDGE IT!

I don't plan to watch it anymore! *frustrated*

And thus, I end the dulan 263rd chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Go away!

Remembering dad...

2008-12-02T19:36:00.000+08:00

To start it off, I couldn't update the other day because of horrible internet connection failure form the operator....

So anyways, another 29th November has passed...

How are you, dad?

It has been 2 years since you went away...

We miss you, dad...

Hope you are in a better life now, where things are going great for you.

We'll meet again in the next life, dad.

Till then, take care, dad.

I will look after the family...

Bye, dad...

And thus, I end the 262nd chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir!

So disappointed!

2008-11-23T23:16:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is my first official month with darling Sha Ting...

And thanks to that fucking bastard who wrecked my car, all my plans have been put into disarray!

I hope he's happy now!

If I ever see him around, I'm gonna make his life a living hell!

Fucking bastard!

I am nothing short of being fucking dulan right now!

And to make matters worse, my family isn't giving me any cooperation either.

Worst part is, my mom is trying to scramble up my already messed up plan!

I am so disapponted!

I can make changes for my mom...

But she can't do the same for me...

This isn't fair...

Why is it that all my life, she treats me like a fucking burden?

I am her son, dammit!

WAS I ADOPTED?

I must have been, for her to be harassing me like this my whole life...

Even though I've always been able to hold back my emotions, I am at the verge of tears right now...

I can't take it anymore!

Why is my mom so unreasonable and not understanding?

And thus, I end the 261st chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

FUCK IT!

I hate fucking drunk drivers!

2008-11-23T05:16:00.000+08:00

Fucking shit!

I hate drunk drivers!

Wanna know why?

This bloody idiot slammed his car into mine when my car was parked by the side...

Funny thing is, how the hell did he slam into my car when my car was parked so nicely inside???

And you know what?

The bastard tried to escape by claiming he hit a tree!

Luckily darling Sha Ting told me to check on my car...

That's when I noticed the damage to my car!

Guess what?

The bastard didn't even apologize!

He was just standing there making calls to his friends to come help him out, while acting like it's my fault for parking my car on a parking zone!

Bloody idiot!

And yes, he was drunk, because I can smell the alcohol bellowing out of his mouth!

Police ruled it as his fault!

To hell with him!

I'm gonna be claiming from his insurance!

That bloody bastard!

Me and darling were so fucking pissed off with that idiot!

His friends explained to us that he was working late and was tired, that's why he lost control.

Working late?

I didn't know working at Red Box Sunway allows you to drink on the job!

I seriously hope he gets fired for this!

And yes, his friends are the ones who told us of where he works...

Bloody bastard!

I am so dulan right now!

No car for another month...

Fucking shit!

And this, I end the 260th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir!

Disappointed...

2008-11-17T00:07:00.000+08:00

Why do I even bother?

What kinda life do I live when I can't even have a simple talk with my family without getting screamed at?

And people wonder why I can't tell anything to my family...

Any secrets I share with them will soon become not a secret...

Any requests I make will be bluntly denied...

Can't I even have a simple bloody discussion with them anymore?

The only person I can talk to now is my dear Sha Ting...

I'm tired of this...

I have tried killing myself in the past because of them...

Too bad those panadols didn't kill me there and then...

If this goes on, I won't be afraid to try it again...

And thus, I end the 259th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

Au revoir...

Of love and flu...

2008-11-04T21:32:00.000+08:00

Good news:

Me and darling Sha Ting and growing more in love with one another =)

Our feelings grow stronger, and we make every minute of our time together count =)

I love you, my darling =)

And I'm glad that I have found someone like you =)

*Muackx* XO

Bad News:

I'm sick as hell...

Had to leave early during Saturday's college food promotion...

And I skipped classes yesterday and today because I was still feeling in the dumps...

Fortunately, now I'm feeling slightly better...

Hope I'll be all well by tomorrow...

Ugh... I hate getting sick...

Especially when you get a sore throat and flu at the same time...

And your whole body aches...

And you feel weak...

Ugh....

Hope I'll recover real soon...

And thus, I end the 258th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

Au revoir!

Some important dates XD

2008-10-26T21:29:00.000+08:00

Here are some important dates I have to remember, as of now XD

24th October: The day we were officially a couple ^^

14th February: Valentine's Day

7th March: OUR birthday! (Yeah, me and her share the same birthday! How cool is that???!)

24th November: 1 month together day XD

24th December: 2 months together day XD

24th January 2009: 3 months together day XD

February 1st 2009: 100 days together day XD

So many dates to memorize XD

But I'm not complaining XD

Loves ya, darling!!!

And thus, I end the 257th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir! =)

I'm with you =)

2008-10-24T18:33:00.000+08:00

My feelings for Sha Ting grow stronger everyday =)

I love her ^^

So much ^^

But with this love, there is also fear...

Somehow, there is a part of me that's afraid...

Afraid of what?

Afraid of losing her to someone else...

So what am I doing about it?

I'm on my toes...

Trying my best to show her my care =)

Showing her that I'm not messing around...

Showing her that she's very important to me!

Why?

Because I don't wanna disappoint her!

I wanna show her that I'm with her because I truly love her!

And NOT because I'm being with her to make myself less lonely =)

Sha Ting!

If you're reading this right now!

I just wanna say!

I LOVE YOU!!!!!

And yes, I will be the 1st type ;)

*Muackx* XO

And thus, I end the 156th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir ^^

Look to the sky!

2008-10-20T13:12:00.000+08:00

All the dark clouds have shifted...

The rain has stopped...

And the rays of light shines upon me and you...

For once, I'm actually content ^^

Loves ya, darling ^^

And thus, I end the 255th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir!

Realization...

2008-10-18T01:41:00.000+08:00

As I spend my days with her...

I realize...

As every day passes by...

That she's growing more and more important to me =)

Sha Ting...

Happy We-Known-Each-Other-For-Two-&-A-Half-Months Day ^^

And thus, I end the 254th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

Au revoir =)

Just so you know! ^^

2008-10-16T00:42:00.000+08:00

I love you!

I love you!

I love you, Sha Ting ^^

With all my heart =)

I promise you =)

*Muackx* XO

I love you =)

And this, I end the 253rd chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here!

Au revoir ^^

*I finally feel like I'm soaring in the clouds!*

Potong Stim: Part II

2008-10-14T00:55:00.000+08:00

Dammit!

Just when conversation was starting to heat up on MSN between us...

POOF!

Internet connection problem...

And the moment was lost...

Fucking shit....

Potong stim!

And thus, I end the 252nd chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

Au revoir XD

Funny video XD

2008-10-13T01:49:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not updating for a few days now...

I've been caught up with some important things XD

=)

So, to compensate, here's a funny video XD

And thus, I end the 251st chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears =)

Au revoir!

POTONG STIM!

2008-10-08T01:43:00.000+08:00

Finally managed to hold Sha Ting's hand...

Finally...

For 5 seconds!

And then, Mandy called me on my mobile to announce she was leaving Old Town Kopitiam...

And the moment was lost..

Potong Stim! T__T

And thus, I end the 250th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir...

Sweet as honey!

2008-10-06T23:31:00.000+08:00

Angel of smiles!

As sweet as honey!

I can never get enough...

And now, I know, I have failed to stop myself from falling again...

Angel of Smiles...

She put a bandage on the wound in my heart...

She was there when my world was dark...

Coreen was right...

I have fallen in love with Sha Ting...

But this time around...

I'm afraid...

I don't wanna lose her....

I can't lose her...

Everytime I fall in love, somebody comes along and takes her away...

I can't afford to lose Sha Ting to somebody else...

The pain I felt has become unbearable...

I'm tired of forever remaining at the losing end...

I might just lose it if somebody steals her too...

And thus, I end the 249th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

Au revoir!

Angel Of Smiles! Sweet as honey ^^

^^

2008-10-06T01:59:00.000+08:00

I am happy!

I am happy!

Why?

My "wings" are healing...

^^

I'm happy!

And thus, I end the 148th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here!

Au revoir ^^

Farewell...

2008-10-03T00:22:00.001+08:00

It has been exactly 1 week since I last came to Singapore...

And now I'm about to leave...

Somehow, I've grown to like this place...

The environment...

The city life...

The efficiency of public transport...

But you know what I'm gonna miss most about singapore?

The following content has been deleted due to privacy reasons ^^

And thus, I end the 247th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir!

Drifting away into a fleeting dream...

2008-10-01T00:37:00.000+08:00

Why have I been dreaming about her so much these few days?

Do I really miss her that much?

Face it, Leon...

All those moments will never come back anymore...

You had your chance...

And you blew it...

You are cursed...

Never fall in love...

For if you do...

She'll go to the arms of another...

This has been true since the past 4 years!

Never fall in love...

Ever...

And all these sweet dreams of her....

I hope they never come back....

It's too painful waking up to reality...

And having tears roll down your cheeks...

And thus, I end the 246th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

Au revoir...

Pain is what keeps us alive... (More crude humour)

2008-09-28T00:10:00.000+08:00

WARNING! NOT FOR THE FAINT-HEARTED!

Face it!

Without pain, we'd all probably be dead by now!

Pain is what keeps us away from what's killing us!

And so, I found this:

Enjoy =)

And thus, I end the 245th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir!

I disappear... For 5 days...

2008-09-26T22:01:00.000+08:00

I'm disappearing....

For 5 days...

Going down to Singapore tomorrow...

And I'm so not looking forward to it...

Why?

Because it's not a holiday...

Have some things to settle...

Trying to get to the bottom of the problem I'm having...

Wilson's Disease...

I have an appointment with the doctors there...

Damn, I hate this curse...

Why me?

Have I really been so nasty?

So evil?

So hateful?

That I am bestowed with this shit?

If I had been, why couldn't it have been something that would have just killed me on the spot?

Why must it be some lifetime bullshit???

WHY???

I DON'T FUCKING UNDERSTAND!

And to make matters worse, some people take this as some laughing joke.

But of course they do...

I'm the one with the disease after all...

Not them...

And just to let all you laughing motherfuckers know!

This disease is caused by genetic mutation!

SO STOP THINKING IT'S SOME SHIT LIKE AIDS, DAMMIT!

YOU CAN'T CATCH IT FROM OTHER PEOPLE!

FUCKING MORONS!

And thus, I end the 244th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir!

A new beginning... Sorta...

2008-09-26T21:47:00.000+08:00

Last term...

Things were different...

They introduced new members from the disbanded group 5 and 6...

Despite being semi-separated into different "cliques", we all had fun!

And manage to work as one kick ass team...

I can only wonder what the new term is college is gonna be like...

Training changes everyone, one way or another...

Surely everyone's got something to show and brag about from what they learned at their respective hotels and restaurants...

Makes me wonder...

If I had any changes to myself to begin with?

What have I learned during these 3 months of training?

Well, I guess I did learn a few things...

Only when college begins, will I know if any of it is relevant =)

The new term begins on October 6th...

Things probably will be tougher compared to the previous terms...

More assignments, more practicals, more headaches!

Time to buck up!

No more fucking around!

And most importantly, I can't let my emotions get in the way of the things I do...

Good luck, DC27, for the upcoming term!

And thus, I end the 243rd chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir!

Sad story...

2008-09-25T22:44:00.000+08:00

A sad love story I found on YouTube...

Damn....

Now I'm teary-eyed for some reason....

Fuck it!

Love doesn't exist!

It makes me upset just thinking about love....

I guess it still hurts....

To hell with love!

And thus, I end the 242nd chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir!

Don't act like I never told you! XD

2008-09-25T02:25:00.001+08:00

I'm gonna let my evil side take over for this moment!

To my dear Suen Wei!

Don't act like I never told you!

Every action bares a consequence!

And now you're knee-deep in shit because of your decision...

Decisions at the heat of the moment?

Look where it has got you?

A "murdered" friend and a useless half!

Doesn't feel nice to be stepped on because of relationship bullshits, does it?

Let's see you try mocking my situation again ^^

And as for your request this afternoon, my answer is no!

I'm not bailing you out of this mess =)

Despite what I foreseen, you still blindly walked into a ditch.

So yeah, don't say I didn't warn you to begin with =)

And don't bother leaving your rants in my cbox either!

I've banned your IP =)

So do me a favour, and leave me out of this ditch you dug for yourself!

And thus, I end the 241st chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir!

Angel of smiles?

2008-09-25T01:58:00.000+08:00

Perhaps there was someone there making me smile these few days...

I was just too blind to notice...

Maybe what SMK predicted was true?

Maybe there really was an angel of smiles cheering me up?

Maybe?

Perhaps my efforts to fight off these sadness and tears have left me blind to my surroundings?

Maybe she's not that bad after all?

Angel of smiles?...

Maybe?

And thus, I end the 240th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir!

From now on...

2008-09-24T13:42:00.000+08:00

From now on...

If I'm quiet and not smiling...

It doesn't necessarily mean that I am emo-ing!

It just means I'm resting my face...

Comprende?

And thus, I end the 239th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

Au revoir!

To the stars...

2008-09-24T02:49:00.000+08:00

It seems everyone's finding their wings to fly them to the stars these days...

And here I am...

Grounded...

As I sit there gazing to the sky...

And thus, I end the 238th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir...

Dreams...

2008-09-23T00:55:00.000+08:00

I dreamt of Winnie today when I was taking a nap this afternoon...

In my dream, she and me were atpark...

Sitting under a tree...

I asked her some questions, but she didn't seem to answer...

"Win Win, how are you?"

"I missed you"

And all she did was look at me and smiled...

Then she suddenly leaned toward me and whispered into my ear...

"Leon, something good is going to happen to you soon."

Then she smiled, stood up, and walked away.

And I woke up shortly after...

Winnie...

I hope you're right...

Thanks for paying me a visit in my dream =)

On another note, I found an old picture I edited...

Back then, I named this picture the Rainbow-winged Monochrome...

How it brings back memories from 3 years ago =)

And thus, I end the 237th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir!

Inspiration by Guru Pitka

2008-09-21T20:36:00.000+08:00

I went to watch a movie with my friend, Sha Ting, today...

The movie was Love Guru...

This is my 2nd time watching the movie, and I can say that Guru Pitka inspired me in a way...

A not so good way...

So here goes:

Why do most guys nowadays get into relationships so easily?

What is it that they have?

What makes them so special?

The answer?

They have plenty of:

C larity
O rganization
C onfidence
K nowledge

That's right! They're full of it!

And that's the same reason why they can turn to girls and say:

B e
L oving &
O pen-hearted
W ith

M y
E motions

And we don't want that happening now, do we?

So I say:

F inding
U nderstanding
C reates
K nowledge

O f
F rivalous
F eelings

And there you have it!

Marishka Hargitay!

And thus, I end the 236th chapter Of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir!

The blessing you didn't know...

2008-09-19T22:55:00.004+08:00

I was reading this love story, and it touched me in some way... So I would liek to share it with you all...

The Blessing You Didn't Know

A sad short story about a man who waited too long. True love was right under his nose all along but he was so busy searching for it, he actually missed it totally.

There was this guy who believed very much in true love and decided to take his time to wait for his right girl to appear. He believed that there would definitely be someone special out there for him, but none came.

Every year at Christmas, his ex-girlfriend would return from Vancouver to look him up. He was aware that she still held some hope of re-kindling the past romance with him. He did not wish to mislead her in any way. So he would always get one of his girl friends to pose as his steady whenever she came back.

That went on for several years and each year, the guy would get a different girl to pose as his romantic interest. So whenever the ex-girlfriend came to visit him, she would be led into believing that it was all over between her and the guy.

The girl took all those rather well, often trying to casually tease him about his different girlfriends, or so, as it seemed! In fact, the girl often wept in secret whenever she saw him with another girl, but she was too proud to admit it. Still, every Christmas, she returned, hoping to re-kindle some form of romance. But each time, she returned to Vancouver feeling disappointed.

Finally she decided that she could not play that game any longer. Therefore, she confronted him and professed that after all those years, he was still the only man that she had ever loved. Although the guy knew of her feelings for him, he was still taken back and have never expected her to react that way. He always thought that she would slowly forget about him over time and come to terms that it was all over between them. Although he was touched by her undying love for him and wanted so much to accept her again, he remembered why he rejected her in the first place-she was not the one he wanted. So he hardened his heart and turned her down cruelly. Since then, three years have passed and the girl never return anymore. They never even wrote to each other. The guy went on with his life..... still searching for the one but somehow deep inside him, he missed the girl.

On the Christmas of 1995, he went to his friend's party alone. "Hey, how come all alone this year? Where are all your girlfriends? What happened to that Vancouver babe who joins you every Christmas?", asked one of his friend. He felt warm and comforted by his friend's queries about her, still he just surged on.
Then, he came upon one of his many girlfriends whom he once requested to pose as his steady. He wanted so much to ignore her ..... not that he was impolite, but because at that moment, he just didn't feel comfortable with those girlfriends anymore. It was almost like he was being judged by them. The girl saw him and shouted across

the floor for him. Unable to avoid her, he went up to acknowledge her.

"Hi......how are you? Enjoying the party?" the girl asked.

"Sure.....yeah!", he replied.
She was slightly tipsy..... must be from the whiskey on her hand. She continued,
"Why...? Don't you need someone to pose as your girlfriend this year?" Then he answered, "No, there is no need for that anymore......"
Before he can continue, he was interrupted, "Oh yes! Must have found a girlfriend! You haven't been searching for one for the past years, right?" The man looked up, as if he has struck gold, his face beamed and looked directly at the drunken girl. He replied, "Yes......you are right! I haven't been looking for anyone for the past years."
With that, the man darted across the floor and out the door, leaving the lady in much bewilderment. He finally realized that he has already found his dream girl, and she was.....the Vancouver girl all along! The drunken lady has said something that awoken him.

All along he has found his girl. That was why he did not bother to look further when he realized she was not coming back. It was not any specific girl he was seeking! It was perfection that he wanted, and yes.....perfection!!

Relationship is something both parties should work on. Realizing that he had let away someone so important in his life, he decided to call her immediately. His whole mind was flooded with fear. He was afraid that she might have found someone new or no longer had the same feelings anymore..... For once, he felt the fear of losing someone.

As it was Christmas eve, the line was quite hard to get through, especially an overseas call. He tried again and again, never giving up. Finally, he got through......precisely at 1200 midnight. He confessed his love for her and the girl was moved to tears. It seemed that she never got over him! Even after so long, she was still waiting for him, never giving up.

He was so excited to meet her and to begin his new chapter of their lives. He decided to fly to Vancouver to join her. It was the happiest time of their lives! But their happy time was short-lived. Two days before he was supposed to fly to Vancouver, he received a call from her father. She had a head-on car collision with a drunken driver. She passed away after 6 hours in a coma.
The guy was devastated, as it was a complete loss. Why did fate played such cruel games with him? He cursed the heaven for taking her away from him, denying even one last look at her! How cruel he cursed! How he damned the Gods...!! How he hated himself....for taking so long to realize his mistake!! That was in 1996.

The moral of this story is : -
Treasure what you have...

Time is too slow for those who wait;
Too swift for those who fear;
Too long for those who grief;
Too short for those who rejoice;
But for those who love...
Time is Eternity.

For all you out there with someone special in your heart, cherish that person, cherish every moment that you spend together that special someone, for in life, anything can happen anytime. You may painfully regret, only to realise that it is too late.

And thus, I end the 225th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

Au revoir!

Seeing through...

2008-09-19T22:55:00.003+08:00

I'm finally able to regain some use of my "eyes"...

To some extent...

But good enough to keep "that guy" at bay...

Team L, ya'll know who I'm talking about...

I'm not letting him call the shots, and running everybody in circles anymore!

I'm making my return, soon...

And there will be changes...

Drastic changes...

And thus, I end the 234th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

Au revoir!

It's over...

2008-09-19T22:55:00.002+08:00

It's over...

My training has come to an end...

These 3 months that have thrown me into a cyclone...

And spat me out...

I realize what a mess I have become...

Culinary skills at a standstill...

Emotional waves...

Lost control of Team L... (Some members are gonna be sorry when I come back!)

Lost reason...

Lost myself...

Gonna have to pick up my life from where I left off, 3 months ago...

What's left of it, anyways...

But, no doubt, I'm striving for a better tomorrow...

And hopefully, the day will come when the sky stops crying...

The clouds shift...

And I will be able to see the sun again...

Someday...

And thus, I end the 233rd chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir!

Am I angry???

2008-09-18T21:06:00.002+08:00

I broke down a record an hour after publishing the previous post...

A few friends of mine messaged me on MSN Messenger, and asked me the same thing...

"Leon, are you angry with someone?"

And everytime I answered 'No', they wouldn't believe me....

SO WHY ASK IN THE FIRST PLACE???

Anyways, now, I'm gonna make it clear and come clean.

Yes, I am angry with someone...

Really angry...

You wanna know who that person is?

Scroll down...

I'm angry with this ugly bitch for scaring the shit out of me!

Anyways, on a more serious note...

I may sound angry in my previous post, but I'm alright...

Don't worry =)

Now fuck off, and stop messaging me with nonsense questions!

Thank you ^^

And thus, I end the 232nd chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir ^^

Drink it in, bleed it out...

2008-09-18T21:06:00.000+08:00

I find myself drinking again, recently...

Not in massive amounts...

But just enough to make me tipsy...

Go red...

Enough to make me lose myself for the moment...

Enough to send me to the skies for a while...

Which is good...

Cause then I don't have to think so much...

I guess it still hurts quite a bit deep down inside...

And I'm tired, literally...

All this showing people that I am "alright" is wearing me down...

I find it damn near impossible to pull myself out of bed recently...

That's when my good friend Carlsberg comes in...

It helps me sleep better at night...

But I still wake up looking like a pile of shit...

Tomorrow is my final day in that cursed place...

The place that brought me so much joy, yet so much pain...

Everyday I spend there brings back tearful flashbacks...

And I don't wanna remember...

Not now, at least...

Maybe until the pain has become numb, will I look back...

Maybe...

I was searching through my computer when I found this picture I drew some time back...

Maybe it has been 2 to 3 years?

I kinda like it...

I remembered I gave it a caption a long time ago on Deviant art.

"In a world full of colours, my heart is bleeding and losing its"

It doesn't look that masterfully drawn, I know...

In fact, it looks like crap...

But I like it anyways...

Obviously, this picture does not relate to me...

Because if you cut open my chest right now...

In the cavity where my heart is supposed to be...

You will find dust instead...

Colourless dust =)

Anyways, I'm off for another can =)

So I'll end the 231st chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

Au revoir...

Broken wing...

2008-09-16T02:06:00.000+08:00

I'm just wondering...

What would Winnie have said...

If she saw me in my new style and all...

With all that piercings and long hair and all...

Especially now that I'm wearing her necklace symbol on my skin...

The necklace I bought from Cameron Highlands for her...

And now I have that symbol marked into the back of my neck...

Winnie...

As long as I'm alive...

A part of you lives on inside me...

And now, probably ON me as well =)

I'm regretting, Winnie...

I wish I could have done more that day to save you...

Yeah, I guess I miss you...

Don't get me wrong!!!

It's not that I miss my dad, grandpa, and grandma any less!

I miss them just as much!

If not, even more...

It's just that I had a dream last night...

About the day that terrible incident occured...

And I managed to protect her...

How I wish that wasn't a dream...

I wish it were true...

Then you will still be here with me, Winnie...

I'm sorry...

I'm so sorry :'-(

And thus, I end the 230th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

Au revoir...

Lies...

2008-09-14T01:43:00.000+08:00

When have I sunk so low...

To have to tell these lies I didn't mean...

Put on a persona I didn't intend...

Say the words I didn't mean to say...

Just so that she would hate me...

If she hated me, she will find solace in the arms of her lover...

I have been an obstacle in their path for too long...

Removing myself from the picture...

Letting them have a guilt-free love...

That is my sacrifice...

Go ahead and hate me...

I want you to hate me...

Rainbow.....

You're still in my heart...........

And thus, I end the 229th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir...

Coming to an end...

2008-09-13T01:20:00.000+08:00

These months are coming to an end...

What started with a sweet beginning...

I about to come to a bitter end...

I don't want to remember it...

Don't want to make it a memory...

But the fiery path I threaded...

Has burned a hole in me...

Scars...

Will they fade away?...

If I could turn back time right now...

I would have taken another path...

Sigh....

I can't go on with this post anymore...

Regrets don't change anything...

And thus, I end the 228th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

Au revoir.......

Digging deep within my emotional graveyard...

2008-09-11T23:57:00.000+08:00

In my graveyard of emotions...

I am digging...

Searching...

For a part of me that died some time back...

Searchign for a clue...

A hint...

An answer...

And finally rid myself of these dead emotions that are weighing me down...

This burden, I must carry alone...

My rivals are closing in on me...

I don't have much time left...

I need my eyes back!

This is war of the mind...

And I cannot afford to drag Team L into this!

To the members in Team L who are still on my side...

Please listen to me!

Get O back!

Get O back from that guy...

To everyone else reading this, ignore this post.

And thus, I end the 27th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir...

Crude humour...

2008-09-11T22:09:00.000+08:00

I've taken a liking in crude and sarcastic humour recently...

Probably as a way to learn new lines to get back at those fuckers who are always clawing their way up my back...

here's a video for you all:

And thus, I end the 226th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir...

Maybe I have to put it on a little longer...

2008-09-11T20:14:00.000+08:00

I can't remove this mask...

Not yet...

Not with what's happening around me...

I have to remain strong...

I can't fall back into darkness...

Not yet...

Pain...

Embrace it...

Pain is a friend...

Pain is what brings us back to who we really are...

Pain prevents us from losing ourselves...

And I feel bad...

For teaching my friend, Xin, about Separation...

I'm sorry, Xin...

I should never have told you my way of freeing myself...

I am not worthy of the title 'Kami no Separation'...

I'm sorry...

And thus, I end the 225th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir...

What is this feeling?...

2008-09-10T23:38:00.001+08:00

I'm confused...

I have a strange feeling...

One that has been bothering me...

For 3 nights, I have dreamt of a friend...

It's strange...

I dreamt that she hugged me every night...

And made me feel less miserable...

And made me feel slightly more alive...

I know it's just a dream...

But dreams sometimes project who we really are...

Probably what I'm feeling now is the need for assurance that I have friends I can rely on...

Friends whom I can trust...

Friends whom I can share my ups and downs with...

Last night's dream was slightly stranger...

I dreamt that she told me to let go of my sorrows...

And move ahead...

And find balance and peace...

Then, she gave me a very strong hug...

And suddenly, a mark appeared on my back...

Yin Yang........

Then I woke up...

Perhaps what I really need now is balance in my life...

Where my sadness will be balanced by happiness...

Pain is balanced by pleasure...

And thus, I marked myself today....

And just for the record, that friend in my dreams is NOT who ya'll think it is =)

She's just a really really good friend of mine XD

The 224th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears ends here...

Au revoir!

Fear to desire...

2008-09-10T01:05:00.000+08:00

My skies are dark...

The winds are cold...

Drenched in these tears...

Tears of the sky...

Don't worry...

I haven't gone off the deep end...

I'm currently keeping a diary...

Writing down all my emotions into that little book...

The Diary Of Rain...

Those few lines above are the first entry into the diary...

Writing down all my joy..

All my pain...

All my sorrow...

All my despair...

As a way to throw them away...

And thus, I end the 223rd chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir...

A caring friend...

2008-09-07T23:03:00.000+08:00

I met an online friend recently...

Her name is Alison, and she's an Asian living in England.

She has a way of cheering people up one way or another...

In my case, she made me a friendster layout...

And it really made my day.

Thank you, Alison.

Your gesture was realy sweet =)

It sure put a smile on my face.

Thanks a bunch.

To the rest of you who are wondering, this is the picture she placed into the background.

She personally edited the pic, and added in some text...

Which are...

Quite meaningful...

And thus, I end the 222nd chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

Au revoir...

Fairytale of frozen tears...

2008-09-07T20:00:00.000+08:00

These tears are frozen...

They can't flow anymore...

I have put on the most painful mask I ever had to wear...

And I have to leave it on...

Till the wound heals...

And the scars fade away...

And by then...

Hopefully...

I will still have something to show beneath that mask...

A fairytale of frozen tears will never have a happy ending...

And yet...

Mine goes on...

Until the day the fairytale reaches it's end...

And the book is closed for good...

But I'm still hopeful....

That someday...

The author of my fairytale...

Will find the inspiration to bring it's main character a happy ending...

They say that after a storm comes a calm...

And for 5 years...

I have been drenched and blown away in this storm...

Let the calm come soon...

I'm looking forward to it...

I am now searching...

Searching for something within myself that makes me feel alive...

When I find it, I'll let ya'll know...

As for now...

I guess what I really need...

Is a hug...

A hug that tells me I'm not alone...

Which...

When I think back...

I did receive one yesterday...

But that's another story for another time...

And thus, I end the 221st chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir...

P/S ~ Yes... This post is in gray... The colour of my clouds now... The clouds behind the mask...

Walking away...

2008-09-06T23:00:00.000+08:00

I'm tired...

I'm a fool, tied to his past...

I have no reason to exist...

And yet, I'm still here...

I'm walking away...

Leaving behind my painful past...

I'm tired of living a lie...

I want a life of my own...

I am an agent of Separation...

The founder of Team L...

And in 2 weeks time, I am disbanding Team L...

I'm tired of all my team mates taking me for granted...

And I'm fed up of that "master of psychological warfare" calling the shots when I'm not around...

I've been away for too long...

Things got out of hand...

And our rivals took advantage...

So this is it...

I'm disbanding Team L once and for all...

To all the members reading this, I am sorry...

I can't go on living a lie...

I don't want to be a seeker anymore...

I made some drastic changes today...

No turning back now...

This piercing will be a constant reminder for me not to fall for anyone...

Anyone at all...

In life, there is no such thing as love...

And I'll do my best to remember that...

Walking away from it all...

Breaking the barriers that has blocked my path...

Breaking the chains that have bonded me to my past...

Trust nobody...

Only myself...

Live only for myself...

I know I'm being selfish...

It's about time...

Trouble follows me to my doorsteps I don't want to know
Blood from Heaven and things from Hell they're forcing me to go
So when you start to realize that I get no more sleep oh brother
So when I walk and when I so when I talk and it's turning
it's turning It's turning turning turning turning.

Chorus

I Left my suicide note on the door

Once more.

The pipe is blowing and they've started searching I'm not afraid to go so bring me
So when I walk and when I so when I talk and It's turning It's turing It's turning turning turning turning

So when you feel like love so when you think above and there's nobody there and there's nobody here

So when you feel estranged and there's no complaints dear God I'm turning I'm turning I'm turning

turning turning turning

Chorus

I Left my suicide note on the door
Baby wont you look me in the eye once more? Once more
Lost In eyes and well it can't stand in my way
Hit me honey I left my things down to play

And thus, I end the 220th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir...

Fuckers!

2008-09-05T22:59:00.000+08:00

You fuckers are so full of shit!

Now I can't be at peace!

Conspiring behind my back when I'm not around!

And now this happens!

I can gladly say that I am nothing short of being totally pissed off.

I can't trust any of you!

If I want something done right, I have to do it myself!

And to the bastard who claims he's the "master of psychological warfare'!

Look what the fuck you landed the group into!

Go to hell, dammit!

My training ends in 2 weeks, and I'll be back to settle this shit once and for all!

And when I do, I don't want to see your face there!

You fuckers only call me when you need my help!

Well, good news!

My eyes don't work anymore!

I can't see through people's personalities anymore!

I can't predict people's actions accurately either!

So you all have to find a way to get out of this ditch you people dug for yourselves!

I hate this team!

Fuckers, the whole lot of you!

When I come back, and after settling this problem, I am officially disbanding the team!

I regret even initializing this team in the first place.

Our top priority, you guys can't even hold in place!

And it's all thanks to our "master of psychological warfare", and his greed!

FUCK YOU!

I'm so sick and tired of this shit!

Now go to hell!

And thus, I end the 219th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Now leave me the fuck alone!

Crazy idea!

2008-09-04T01:02:00.000+08:00

I have this sudden crazy idea! (Which chances are, won't happen)

My idea is to make a cover music video for the song 'Your Guardian Angel'

The story goes something like this:

The music video will show 2 unlikely people who meet by chance.

The guy and girl are walking from different directions, and suddenly, the girl trips.

The guy, who happens to be in a few steps in front of her, saw her falling, and went forward to hold her and prevent her from falling.

They got introduced to one another, and soon grew to become close friends as they met often from that day.

Their days go by, doing meaningful things together.

They share secrets that they have never told anybody else.

They stay up late calling or texting one another.

It is then that the guy realizes he's in love with the girl, but couldn't bring himself to tell her.

Then, one night, the 2 are taking a stroll in a park, and they sit down on a bench overlooking a lake.

The guy musters his courage, and confesses his true feelings, much to the girl's suprise.

The girl didn't know how to respond; does not know whether to accept him or not.

Then the girl stands up and tries to walk away.

But the guy quickly grabs her hands, and pull her back, holding her tight in his arms.

Then, gazing into her eyes, he gently moves forward, and kisses the girl on the lips.

The girl's feelings loosen up.

The 2 share a tender, romantic kiss.

As they embrace one another lovingly.

Then the song fades out.

Sounds too romantic to be true, no?

I conceived this idea when I was sitting at the park today, staring out at the lake.

Thinking to myself, how lucky I would be if I could bring my girlfriend here in the future.

Then I started humming "Your Guardian Angel".

And the idea just struck me.

If I really wanted to make the video...

I would need a suitable guy and girl who are really in love with one another in real life...

Which, I doubt any of them would wanna participate in this, anyways...

Well, at least now that I have the idea, looks like I have to wait..

Who knows? The opportunity might just arise.

Someday...

And thus, I end the 218th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir!

An advertisement!

2008-09-02T21:35:00.000+08:00

I went to see a doctor today, and he gave me some pills to help me with my problems.

From this day on, I'm gonna be taking these pills, and I'm sure they will help me some way or another...

Well, I'm not gonna ellaborate much on the pills, so I took the ad and posted it here.

Ya'll should try it too:

Yeaps, Fukitol!

Try some today XD

And thus I end the 217th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here.

Au revoir =)

Fucking shit!

2008-09-02T18:50:00.000+08:00

Got involved in a freak car accident this morning...

A speeding car slammed on to the driver seat...

And well into me...

Ugh.... My ribs are hurting like hell now...

And my car looks like.... Just plain sad...

And to make matters worse, the police claim that it was my wrong...

I'm just glad that me and my sister made it out of that incident alive...

For a moment, I thought my time has finally come...

Then, my car came to a screeching halt...

And I was grasping my rib in pain...

During the time of the collision, it felt like time stopped for a few seconds...

And many many thoughts flew through my head in that short time...

1st thought was my family... I was worried that I might not be able to take care of them anymore...

2nd thought was Rainbow... I was worried that I won't be able to see and care for her anymore...

3rd thought was my sister... Was wondering if she was alright...

The final thought were my departed relatives... I thought I might be able to meet them again...

I remember these thoughts so clearly as the cars crashed into each other...

Then something strange happened...

For a split second... I saw her...

She whispered something into my ear...

Winnie...

I could have sworn that I saw and heard her...

Maybe it's one of those "state of trauma" things... I dunno...

But at least I learnt something from this incident...

How life is so fragile, and hangs by a thread...

How one could lose their lives just like that...

All those things that I said in my previous posts...

I take them all back...

I'll live on for now...

You want that for me too, right Winnie?

I heard you...

I guess this incident has made me appreciate my life a bit more...

And to treasure those around me...

And as a result, I don't really feel that emo anymore...

Seriously!

Now, if I'm not emo, then why is the title of this post "Fucking Shit"?

Because I won't have a car for 2 weeks T_T

2 friggin' weeks! T_T

Getting to work is gonna be a hassle...

And I guess I can't stay out late with friends for tea sessions for the time being...

*Slams face to wall*

Owh well, I guess I'm too traumatized to drive for the time being anyways...

Today was just scary...

But I'm glad that it knocked some sense into my head.

At least I'm thinking clearly now ^^

And thus, I end the 216th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here!

Au revoir!

Fucking shit!

Sleepless...

2008-09-02T02:14:00.000+08:00

I can't sleep...

My chest and back are hurting...

Still sick....

Ugh....

gonna try get some rest...

P/S ~ If you people are gonna leave comments to deliberately try and make me feel more miserable, at least have the guts to tell me who you are!

Stop leaving anonymous comments and pretend to be virtous!

Thank you =)

Nope, not angry.

Those anonymous comments I just received really made my day.

Now goodnight!

And thus, I end the 215th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears..

Au revoir!

I'm sorry.... I love you...

2008-09-01T23:44:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry...

For having these feelings...

I'm sorry...

I wasn't a better person...

I'm sorry...

My heart only belongs to you...

I'm sorry...

For being me...

I'm sorry...

For giving you this pain and unhappiness...

I'm sorry...

I wasn't the one for you...

I'm sorry...

That it's hurting you...

I'm sorry...

But it's killing me...

I'm sorry...

I LOVE YOU...... T_T

I hate these emotions within this shattered heart of mine...

I no longer have the energy to push forward...

Everyday seems like another drag...

Every second feels so painful...

I'm tired of wearing this mask...

That is hiding away my tears...

I'm tired...

Of having to cry myself to sleep every night...

What should I do?..............

And thus, I end the 214th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

Au revoir...

Pain is a friend... Blood is a relief...

2008-09-01T19:07:00.001+08:00

At times like this...

I can't look forward...

I can't turn back...

Nowhere to run...

Nowhere to hide...

No strength to fight...

No will to live...

Pain serves as a constant reminder that I am alone...

Pain is a friend...

Blood is a sign that I am still alive...

Blood...

WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT???!!!

And thus, I end the 213rd chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir...

Face down on the ground...

2008-08-31T12:45:00.000+08:00

I have fallen...

My wings are broken...

And I'm left face down on the ground...

I mean nothing to everybody...

Nowhere to run...

Nowhere to turn to...

Trust no one...

For they all want me dead...

Each and every one of them...

I am alone...

It's only a matter of time...

Winnie Lim...

If you're watching me from above right now...

Just wait a little longer, alright?

I dunno when, but one day, I'll join you again...

And we can reminesce about the old days before that tragic incident...

I'm sorry I didn't protect you enough...

Slap me when I get there, k?

I deserve it...

And thus, I end the 212th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir...

What has become of me...

2008-08-30T02:05:00.001+08:00

I hate myself...

I hate myself so much...

Winnie Lim Tin Wee...

Wait for me...

I'll probably be joining you soon...

I'm sorry...

Why did it have to be you?

When it should have been me?...

Why?

And thus, I end the 211st chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir.....

Emo...

2008-08-29T01:47:00.000+08:00

Today started off with a bang!

Was happy the whole morning and afternoon...

Then I went into work, and suddenly...

Just suddenly...

I got struck with emoness...

I dunno how it happened...

I'm alright now, though...

But feelings have changed...

From being agitated and emo...

My feelings calmed down...

And gave rise to new feelings...

This is how I'm feeling now...

And thus, I end the 210th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir!

Just some random thoughts...

2008-08-28T02:27:00.000+08:00

IGNORE THIS POST!!!

"If you are happy, I wanna share your happiness"

"If you are sad, I will cry with you..."

"If you're lonely, I am there for you"

"If you want to be alone, I will give you space"

"If forever's the limit, I want to be with you forever and a day"

I have no idea why all these thoughts are bursting into my head.

It has been a happy day =)

And thus, I end the 209th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here.

Au revoir XD

Weary...

2008-08-26T23:23:00.000+08:00

I've been kinda tired lately...

But still, I find the energy to continue doing my daily routines...

And as a result, I look kinda worn out recently...

Even my friends from TGI Friday's say I have lost weight...

Why is this so?

I'm eating right...

Apart from being tired, I feel completely alright!

So why am I losing weight and looking pale and stuff?

Maybe it's the thought of Rainbow that makes me push myself, and try to achieve more...

And that certainly is a good thing =)

I will keep pushing myself to try and achieve the best XD

And thus, I end the 208th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here.

Au revoir =)

Depression...

2008-08-23T01:00:00.000+08:00

I'm depressed...

Times like these, I feel like shooting myself...

Sigh...

What have I done to deserve this?...

The 207th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears ends here...

Au revoir...

Return to bitterness...

2008-08-23T00:03:00.000+08:00

Despite trying my best to be a better person...

I am slowly fading away with time...

Nobody cares whether I live or die anymore...

And thus, I return to bitterness...

I'm alone...

The 206th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears ends here.

Au revoir!

Decisions... Dammit!

2008-08-22T01:19:00.000+08:00

Great....

Just great...

Now I'm left with a decision to make...

On the current emotional path I'm walking on...

Shall I follow the colours, or should I turn back?

Aih...

I hate these sorta decisions...

Guess I'll have to sleep on it...

Till then, I end the 205th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

Au revoir!

I'm not o-fucking-kay...

2008-08-19T02:12:00.000+08:00

I realized something recently....

My "eyes" no longer work...

I have difficulty seeing into peoples' personalities...

What is happening?

Why can't I read people like I used to?

I can't see ahead of peoples' actions...

My "sharingan" isn't working...

Not to mention that I am under fire from all sides...

All sides want to get to me...

And the outcome from each side probably isn't a good one...

And my only "weapon" has stopped functioning...

Now I'm in trouble...

This is it... Time to take it on...

No turning back now...

And thus, I end the 204th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

Au revoir...

I'm nothing

2008-08-19T00:15:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I really hate myself for what I am.

These feelings are being welled up inside, just waiting to burst.

But I couldn't...

I'm trying to keep myself strong.

Even though, it's obvious that I'm getting weaker day by day...

Mentally, I'm fatigued...

Is there nothing left for me in this world?

Haven't been happy recently...

I guess I have pretty much lost everything...

And I can't express how I feel...

I probably don't even fully know what the hell is happening to me...

Now I ask myself...

Should I walk ahead, and see what awaits me?...

Or should I end my journey here?...

I hate myself...

And thus, I end the 203rd chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here.

Au revoir!

Dive into my heart...

2008-08-18T00:44:00.000+08:00

I dove into my feelings, and finally found the inspiration to write up my song.

What is my inspiration?

Who is my inspiration?

Rainbow!

So anyways, here's the first verse of the song (Mind you, I'll be modifying the lyrics later on):

If I had one wish,
I wish I'd met you sooner,
Seeing you smile,
Looking at me,
And the moment just melts me away.
But reality ain't as sweet as it seems,
Life's like that all along,
I guess I'm just a friend to you.

That's that for now.

More to come, soon.

Getting late, time for me to TRY and sleep...

Been having sleeping problems lately...

And thus, I end the 202nd chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears.

Au revoir!

Oh no... Not again...

2008-08-17T02:03:00.000+08:00

You know why it sucks to be me?

It's when you fall in love with someone, and you KNOW you are not capable of being with that person.

Geez... What is it I'm missing?

Why can't I be like every other guy?

The kind of guy that would make the girls go "woot"...

But yet, I remain as myself.

Day by day, I'm hating myself more because of who I am.

I have nothing to brag about...

And probably, I worry too much...

And I find myself constantly thinking of that one girl...

That one girl that makes me feel "alive" again, after being "dead" for more than 4 years.

Let's call her Rainbow, shall we?

I've known Rainbow for a couple of months now...

Well, Rainbow holds a very special place in my heart...

And I'm not about to lose her to some dude who can't appreciate her like I do...

And if this post is not making sense to you, don't worry.

I haven't gone crazy, maybe..

I'm just kinda sick today (literally)...

And to make matters worse, I'm drunk now (seriously)...

It's amazing how I'm still able to type this...

Well, the alcohol and sickness is kicking in, so I guess I'll end the 201st chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here...

Au revoir!

Your Guardian Angel!

2008-08-16T02:12:00.000+08:00

Under recommendation from Mandy, I listened to the song 'Your Guardian Angel' by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.

True enough, she has good taste in music.

I fell in love with the song, and the meaningful lyrics.

But too bad, I can't seem to find the embedding code online to put the song in this blog.

But the song is wickedly sweet!

So, until I find the song to put up in this blog, here are the lyrics:

When I see your smile,
Tears roll down my face.
I can't replace.
And now that I'm stronger, I have figured out,
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul.
And I know I'll find deep inside me,
I can be the one.

I will never let you fall. (let you fall.)
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all. (through it all.)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

It's okay,
It's okay,
It's okay-ay-ay-ay-ay

Seasons are changing,
And waves are crashing,
And stars are falling all for us.
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter,
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall. (let you fall.)
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all. (through it all.)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

'Cause you're my, you're my, my-e-y-e-y,
My true love, my whole heart.
Please don't throw that away.
'Cause I'm here... for you!
Please don't walk away and,
Please tell me you'll stay... here!

Whoa-oh!
Stay!
Whoa-oh!

Use me as you will!
Pull my strings just for a thrill!
And I know I'll be okay,
Though my skies are turning grey! (grey! grey! )

I will never let you fall!
I'll stand up with you forever!
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even if saving you sends me to heaven!

I will never let you fall!
I'll stand up with you forever!
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even if saving you sends me to heaven! (continues until fades out)

Well, there're the lyrics.

I'm gonna try looking for the song again, and hope I can post it up soon.

Thanks, Mandy, for recommending this wonderful song =)

Anyways, on a different note...

I'm sick now =(

Gonna get some rest.

So I guess I'll end the 200th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here.

Au revoir!

Who I am inside...

2008-08-12T00:54:00.000+08:00

Today, I had a conversation with my good friend after work.

Quite a meaningful conversation, I can say.

And it made me see into myself, and face the demons within.

The demons that have been haunting me for the past 4 years.

Now I'm beginning to wonder...

Could things return to the way they were before...

4 years of downfall is too long for me...

It's time to get back up.

I found part of my confidence back by becoming a 'lion'.

Now, to find the rest.

I might need some help.

And hopefully, I'll be back in no time.

I'm feeling relieved tonight =)

And thus, I end the 199th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here.

Au revoir!

If I had one wish...

2008-08-05T00:22:00.001+08:00

Okay, so I'm planning to compose a song about my life...

Or rather, what I've been going through recently.

Currently working on the lyrics.

But unfortunately, I'm kinda stuck with the lyrics.

I only managed to pen down 2 lines...

They are:

"If I had one wish..."

"I'd wish I had met you sooner..."

Trying to piece together the rest of the song...

And hopefully, record it someday XD

Well, that's it for now.

Stay tuned for more updates to come.

This is your Piggy Lion, signing out.

And thus, I end the 198th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears.

Au revoir XD

Piggy Lion?

2008-07-31T23:13:00.000+08:00

Okay, so now I got a new nickname.

Given to me by my good friend, Tse Wooi.

The nickname is Piggy Lion.

Sounds cute, right? XD

Well, I was searching around for a picture of a pig and a lion to photoshop to some up with something that looks like a Piggy Lion.

And then, I found this cute pic ^^

Such a cute pic, right?

I can't say the same for the Piggy Lion...

Scroll down for Piggy Lion

BEHOLD! THE PIGGY LION!!!

And thus, I end the 197th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir!

Streamyx, baby!

2008-07-30T01:09:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'm gonna keep this post short and sweet.

Although I had dreams of her for 6 days in a row, I'm not gonna talk about them today.

Instead, I'm gonna talk about Streamyx Broadband.

I FINALLY GOT STREAMYX AGAIN!

BYE BYE, LOUSY MAXIS BROADBAND!

MAXIS BROADBAND SUCKS!

And thus I end the 196th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir! ^^

4th night in a row... No longer a coincidence...

2008-07-28T02:41:00.000+08:00

Okay, so I had another strange dream, with the same friend, for the 4th night in a row last night.

Not that I'm complaining, because I had a sweet dream last night.

It's one of those dreams that are so sweet, and so nice, that you'd wish you never woke from it XD

So anyways, not gonna ellaborate much on my dream.

Just that, I was in a familiar place with her.

Hanging out, just chilling, accompanying one another XD

But I can't say life is sweet today...

When I woke up, I went to temple, and of all things, I fell down and hurt myself real bad.

My knee and palm are bleeding, and my favourite pants tore at the knee section T_T

To top it all off, I only receive news NOW that the children's camp was short of money.

And we tried to work it out, seeing where the money has gone too.

And that fat-ass advisor was trying to push the blame on me, and was trying to jump to conclusions.

As if I'm gonna let that happen!

It's ironic how in a Buddhist temple society, when the people with authority don't get things going their way, they break every rule in Buddhism to try and achieve their goals.

I'm begining to wonder if I made the right choice to skip 4 damn days of college to attend the camp in the first place.

Fortunately, none of the exco is with her.

Now we're figuring out what must be done, and hopefully, things will be settled soon.

Anyways, after mentally exhausting myself because of that stupid incident, I went home to rest a while, then went to work.

Work went smoothly, but I sorta got into a few minor accidents.

Not a good day today.

I must start being more careful!

It's like what my good friend told me.

"You are a lion. If you want to protect someone, you must take care of yourself first"

So true!

I must be more careful!

I hope tomorrow will be a better day!

And thus, I end the 195th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir!

Another dream? 3rd night in a row...

2008-07-27T02:08:00.000+08:00

For the 3rd night in a row, I had an unusual dream...

In it, I was alone in this field, and I was wondering around.

It was night, and it was a pleasant feeling.

But the silence of the field is broken by a howl, followed by a familiar scream.

I followed the sound, and soon found it's source...

It was my friend...

The same friend from the beach...

And she was cornered by a gigantic wolf.

And I mean gigantic, as in, it was as tall as a house!

My friend was scared.

I had to do something!

And suddenly, a sword appeared in my hand, and I began fighting the wolf.

I chased it away, but suffered a bite on my shoulder.

Then I went to check if my friend was okay.

And she smiled.

Then I woke up.

Could it be?

Something is changing within me...

Even in my dreams...

I'm slowly becoming a lion to her!

Even in my dreams, I'd rather get hurt than to see her in danger.

I know it's just a dream...

But to me, it seems to be more than that.

I finally realize my stand.

I am her lion!

And I'll keep improving myself to be a better person!

That's a promise!

Your lion stands proud!

And thus, I end the 194th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir!

The beach

2008-07-26T02:12:00.000+08:00

I had the strangest dream last night.

I dreamt I was on a beach...

With a friend...

Talking the hours away...

This is the 2nd night in a row this kinda dream has occured.

I wonder if it's trying to tell me something.

I remember one part of the dream...

I was standing, with the water up to my waist...

Looking up to the sky, I saw many shooting stars, and I made a wish...

A wish that couldn't be revealed just yet.

But suddenly, something unusual happened.

And I woke up...

It is then that I finally realize...

I finally know what I really want...

And thus, I end the 193rd chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir!

I am your lion!

2008-07-25T00:54:00.000+08:00

My name is Leon.

It other languages, it means Thunder, or Lion.

I want to be your Lion!

A steadfast lion that will protect you from harm.

Care for you.

Make sure nothing will harm you!

I may not look like much, but when it comes to protecting the things I cherish most, I become a different person completely.

I become stronger.

To me, those who have not lost something they cherish will never learn to appreciate.

And thus, I will give my all to make sure nobody ever harms you.

This picture is sweet, don't you think so?

But this is more than just a picture to me.

It has significance with something important that took place recently.

I can't tell you what it is yet, though.

Until then, I end the 192nd chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here.

Au revoir!

Survey (Save me... I'm bored)

2008-07-22T01:35:00.000+08:00

1. What does your Friendster quote mean?

* I will protect the one I love.

2. Elaborate on your default photo:

* Nothing much. Just me trying to reach out.

3. Who is the first person on your top 6?

* A friend.

4. What’s your relationship with the people in your top 6?

* Friends and pet siblings.

5. What exactly are you wearing?

* Long pants and sleeveless white shirt.

6. What is your current problem?

* Confused.

7. What do you love most?

* Magic

8. What makes you most happy?

* Making others happy ^^

9. Are you musically inclined?

* yeap!

10. Which shoe goes on first?

* right one

11. If you could go back in time, and change something…

* Be a better person.

12. Ever have a near death experience?

* Yeah, I have.

14. Name an obvious quality you have:

* errr.... not too sure... Entertaining, maybe?

15. What’s the name of the song that’s stuck in your head right now?

* Far Away by Nickelback

16. Any celeb you would marry?

* nope

18. Name someone with the same birthday as you:

* An old friend. Can't remember her name, though. Just know she has the same birthday as me.

19. Do you have a crush on someone?

* Yup!

20. Have you ever vandalized someone’s private property?

* Yeah =P

21. Been in a fight?

* ya

22. Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?

* Yeap.

23. What’s the first thing you notice about the preferred sex?

* Eyes.

24. What do you usually order from Starbucks?

* Vanilla blended

26.Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?

* yeah...

27. Say something totally random about you?

* I am a man!

28. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?

* Yeah... I'm not telling which celebrity, though XD

29. How old are you?

* 21

30. Go out or stay in?

* go out

31. Do you wear a watch?

* Yeap!

32. Do you have anything pierced?

* Yeap. My ears.

33. Do you have any tattoos?

* nope

34. Do you like pain?

* NO!

35. Do you like to shop?

* yup!

36. What was the last thing you paid for with cash?

* Food

37. What was the last thing you paid for with a credit card?

* Can't remember.

38. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?

* Sis.

39. What is on your desktop background?

* my picture

40. Do you like redheads?

* not really...

41. Do you know any twins?

* yup!

42. Do you have any weird relatives?

* Definately!

43. What was the last movie you watched?

* Hellboy 2! It was nice!

44. What was the last book you read?

* can't remember... I think it was a cookbook... maybe?

45. Did you or do you go to college?

* of course!

46. What is your favorite pair of pants that you own?

* My cargo pants!

47. What is your favorite day of the week?

* Saturday!

And thus, I end the 191st chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears!

Au revoir!

Confession!

2008-07-21T00:55:00.000+08:00

I like you!

I like you alot!

I really do =)

And thus, I end the 190th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears.

Au revoir!

Tired...

2008-07-19T01:25:00.000+08:00

I've been more tired than usual lately...

And also been having sleep problems...

What's happening?

Perhaps I've been thinking too much...

Having too much on my mind.

Maybe?

I dunno...

Ignore the next part please!

I MISS YOU! WHEN CAN I SEE YOU AGAIN?

*ahem ahem*

Anyways, the 189th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears ends here.

Au revoir!

Quiet nights...

2008-07-16T23:43:00.000+08:00

Usually, during the day time, I could find things to do to get my mind off things.

It's usually work, or college, or something.

But it's only at night, when I'm alone in my room, that I feel it.

This quietness...

This silence...

I don't like it one bit.

But nonetheless, I still have some things to take care of these past few weeks, which is why I've been coming home immediately after work...

But still, after what needs to be done, the silence will seep its way in.

Sometimes, late at night, I stare at my laptop, hoping for a reply from someone.

Anyone.

As long as it breaks the silence of the still night.

Funny, isn't it?

The life of a lone wolf.

Perhaps I'm too used to running things my way.

Doing things alone.

Minimizing my dependancy on others.

That has made me what I am now.

A bitter, lonely guy.

And I don't like it one bit...

How should I pull myself out of this?

I better start thinking of a solution...

Until then, I end the 188th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here.

Au revoir!

Survey (by Inez)

2008-07-13T00:17:00.000+08:00

1. Is anything wrong?

.. I guess so...

2. Would you kiss anyone on your friends list?

.. probably... maybe... who knows?

3. Where do you go to college?

.. Taylor's School Of Hospitality And Tourism

4. How many kids do you want to have?

.. 2, perhaps?

5. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

.. yup.

6. What did you do for your last birthday?

.. Celebrate with my grandmother for the last time... Sigh...

7. What were you doing last night?

.. Online and chatting.

8. Name something or anything you CANNOT wait for?

.. Seeing her again.

9. Last time you saw your father?

.. 2 years ago...

10. What is something(s) you would want to change in your life?

.. I want to be a better person!

13. Whats your favorite month?

.. December

14. What is your least favorite month?

.. January

15. Do you like peanut butter?

.. If nothing else is available.

16. Who’s making you feel the way you are right now?

.. My mixed up emotions.

17. Most visited webpage?

.. Friendster

18. Last person to make you mad?

.. The black guy from work!

19. Coke or pepsi?

.. Both!

20. Chocolate or Vanilla?

.. Chocolate!!!

And thus, I end the 187th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears.

Au revoir!

I never fall for the same girl twice...

2008-07-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

But I'll make an exception this time =P

I don't think I need to ellaborate much on what I just said.

You figure out the rest yourself!

Time will tell...

Until then, I end the 186th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here.

Au revoir!

You have a position, but you're still a moron!

2008-07-10T23:56:00.000+08:00

Apparently, being in a higher position these days give people the right to talk out of their asses!

How much more of this bullshit have I gotta take?

To that certain someone who's pissing me off:

You have a "high up" position, but unfortunately, you're still a moron!

Get a life!

Jerk!

Man, I hate my life!

Life really is a screwed up pot of crap!

And thus, I end the 185th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears.

Go away!

I miss you... Maybe...

2008-07-08T22:43:00.000+08:00

Been feeling kinda weird this past few days...

Feels like a part of me just disappeared...

I dunno why I'm feeling this way...

It's probably because I miss her... Maybe...

I miss her a lot...

Isn't there anything I can do to free me from this trap I have fallen into?

Somebody help me...

Please...

I can't go on like this...

And thus I end the 184th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir!

Separation... The story continues...

2008-07-05T01:00:00.000+08:00

Firstly, I'd like to announce the revival of my other blog, www.memoirsofalala.blogspot.com

I'll be mainly using that blog to shout curses at the people and things I hate...

Anyways, on to the main topic.

I still hate myself more than ever.

And today, during break time, me and my friend, Maynard were exchanging ideas about some love related topic.

Well, I told him that to me, real love doesn't exist anymore.

And I put a mark on myself to serve as a constant reminder that love doesn't exist.

And I showed him the Separation Mark...

It is only then, that I realise that the Separation Mark has become barely visible...

The mark that brought upon my descend...

It's gone...

What will become of me after this?

I will never know...

And thus, I end the 183rd chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears here.

Au revoir...

Trying to pick myself up...

2008-07-03T22:59:00.000+08:00

It has been 1 week since that unfortunate incident... And I'm slowly picking myself up.

Although it still hurts when the thought hits me, I am able to hide the pain better now.

Sometimes, I want to see her so bad...

I send a message...

But that's the only thing I can do...

I can't do anything else...

I'm hopeless...

I guess loneliness is the price I have to pay for all the wrong I have done...

I am just a nobody...

I don't deserve an angel like her...

I hate myself...

I wanna pick myself up....

But I guess that won't be happening anytime soon...

I hate myself...

I hate myself so much...

The 182nd chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears ends here...

Au revoir...

To kill a guy who has lost everything...

2008-06-29T21:40:00.000+08:00

To kill a guy who has lost everything, you have to make that guy fall in love.

Not just your regular kind of love.

The kind of love where that guy will do anything and everything for the girl he loves.

A love where the guy is willing to sacrifice for her.

A love where he puts the girl before himself.

A love where he will gladly give his life to see the girl safe.

A love where the girl is in his mind every moment of time.

And what do you do to kill the guy?

You take his love away.

Take away his girl.

He will have nothing left.

Nothing to look forward to in the coming days.

Nothing.

The guy is dead.

Congratulations.

You killed him.

Congratulations.

Leon Ng Ca Ho is dead...

Ignore this post...

And thus ends the 181st chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears.

Au revoir!

Broken wish...

2008-06-28T13:20:00.000+08:00

What did I do wrong in my past life?

I have been trying to improve myself...

Trying to advance myself in every way...

But what's the point?

It's all hopeless...

I'm left with nothing...

So this is what it feels like to have lost the last bit of hope that keeps me looking forward to another day...

What else do I have to look forward to?

If I died right now, good...

Who'll attend my funeral?

And thus I end the 180th chapter of The Fairytale Of Frozen Tears...

Au revoir...

Tagged by Inez

2008-05-24T00:55:00.000+08:00

The best place to cry?

. Probably in my room...

2. The THINGS you love the most?

. My magic stuff!

3. Your dream last night?

. Believe it or not... Cooking delicious food XD (I'm watching WAY too many Gordon Ramsay videos....)

4. Ever hated someone so bad?

. Definately!

5. Want to be someone else than yourself?

. Sometimes...

6. Ever slapped someone?

. YEAH!

7. The last time you cried?

. Yesterday night...

8. Bf/Gf?

. None!

9. The last mall you went to?

. Times Square

11. Biggest lie you said today?

. Didn't tell one!

12. What do you want to eat right now?

. Sweets

13. Where are you at now?

. my room

14. Have you ever failed a subject at school?

. Form 6.... =P

15. What is on your mind right now?

. Memories I'm about to leave behind when I move to Subang in a few days time...

16. Honestly, who are you chatting with online right now?

. Friends

17. Have you brushed your teeth today?

. OBVIOUSLY.....

18. Honestly, who do you think is the hottest person alive?

. Kiera Knightley!

19. Honestly, are you a good friend?

.I guess so?

20. Honestly, do you really think going to school is important?

. To a certain extent, yes.

21. Honestly, who makes you happy most of the time?

. Making people happy with my magic =P

22. Honestly, what makes you so sad about right now?

. Lots of stuff...

23.Do you still talk to the person who broke your heart the worst??

. Yeah, I do.

24.Have you ever seen your best friend naked?

. Thankfully, NO!

25.Who is your best girl friend?

. I refuse to answer this question, as it wil make all my other girl friends stare daggers at me!

26.What is the best thing about your studies?

. Best thing? Err.... Get to cook?

27.Which shoe do you put on first?

. right shoe

28.Who was the last person to call you?

. Jamie Chai

29.Do you steal people's boyfriends or girlfriends?

. Nope!

30.What would you change about your life right now?

. My confidence! I want to be a more confident person!

31.Who was the last person who text you

. Jamie

32.What's the weirdest thing you have done while driving?

. Went on the wrong side of the road...

33.Do you live alone?

. nope

34.Last person you hung out with?

. Jamie, Wei Tzyy, and my sis

35.Have you ever tried to get back to past?

. Yeah, I wish I could...

36.Have you ever gone camping?

. yeap

37.Do you love someone?

. Hehe! Absolutely =P

38.When was the best year of your life?

. I'm not too sure myself... But I guess it was when I joined the culinary course

39.Have you ever had a stalker?

. yeah... 3 scary ones...

40.Do you have any strange phobias?

. being alone in swimming pool or water...

41.Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them?

. Yeah!

42.What do you do before goin to bed?

. Close my eyes and hope for a sweet dream and better tomorrow

43.Are you happy?

. Trying to be

44.Would you live with someone without marrying him/her?

. Depends

45.Do you remember what you were like a year ago?

. A super emo fella... Slightly inmproving now, and I hope to keep it up!

46.Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?

. Yeah!

47.Where are your sibling(s)?

. At home.

48.Do you sleep with the TV on?

. nope

49.Name five things you did today?

. College, Acupuncture, Federal Bakery, Hang Out, Online

50.Last person who you called?

. Xuan Shan

51.Future kid's names?

. I have no idea... Don't even have girlfriend yet, wanna start thinking of kid's names already? Weird...

52.What are you doing tomorrow?

. Shopping for camp stuff

53.Are you on a laptop or a desktop?

. Laptop

54.Do you talk in your sleep?

. Yeah =P Which is why I'm scared, because sometimes I reveal my secrets in my sleep =P

55.What is your fave color?

. white, black, red, blue